The tables in the classroom are covered with paper. You aren't supposed to write on the paper, but there were sentences like "We will miss you!", "I love you", and "Sorry for writing on the tables!" These are words of fellow students. Last words that didn't get a chance to be said, so here they are written.
Maybe it's because I know more people now but it seems like every year someone from my school dies. Yesterday it was a teacher. My art teacher. They say she died in her sleep. She did a lot for our school like art shows, events and more, and will be missed. I don't know if I'm numb or if it hasn't registered yet or what, because I'm not in despair, only a little sad when I think about it. Other people are affected more than I am. It's been a good class because I basically can do whatever art I want as long as I'm doing art, and I wonder what my class will look like for the rest of the year. I had a lot of freedom. For now, I'm just remembering the good times and I'm thankful that I got to have her as a teacher each year of High School.
She was a teacher for many years, and she was very active in the community so this affects a lot of people. She was a part of our school more than the brick and glass that form the buildings.
It seems like whenever someone finds out that you are into doing any element of Hip Hop, it doesn't matter whether you're the one who told them or not, they'll ask you to prove it. I'm not complaining, I think that's cool, it means you have to be ready. The other day before school someone found out that I am into hip hop dance (it's not something I'm pursuing but it's something that I enjoy, so that's why I keep it general). Actually, what was said about me was that "He's a breakdancer." Not true! Not quite. But when the other guy said, "show me a dance," I didn't argue, I just put on some headphones, played some LA Symphony and busted a move right there in the middle of the High School commons before school. I don't know how good it was, certainly nothing special, but no one was laughing or challenging me at the end of it.
A good sign.
The reason why I don't say that I'm a Bboy (the 'real' name for breakdancer), is because if I say that, then people get a picture in their head of someone spinning on their head. Plus, it would do injustice to call me that because I don't pursue it with all my will, I just dabble. Like on Friday, I went to the YMCA and asked someone in the dancing room there to teach me. I could've gotten intimidated because there are some really good dancers in there, but everyone starts somewhere. He was cool and taught me the six-step---something that I can practice and my first "real" Bboy move... unless popping counts. I'm still doing that at a slow speed but who knows? Maybe I'll start liking this as much as rapping.
In the past few months, I've gone through 50 random name ideas, seriously considered around seven and actually went by three. It was a "process" but now I believe that I have a name I'll stick with. I had a name that sounded too similar to another rapper's name, so I knew I was going to change it, and when I wanted to communicate through myspace and create a soundclick (to try it), picking a name was something that I absolutely had to do, unless I wanted to be stuck staring at the "Create a Username: " page.
Survei is the one that it came down to. It's a bit out-of-the-ordinary, which is what I was going for, it feels deep, and it has a meaning. What it means is that I am constantly looking ahead and asking questions, figuring things out and learning new things from people. Also on really good days, it means I served it up, (but don't tell that to anyone or I might find myself between a tough rap battle and hard place.) I take advice and learn from other people.
Keep it movin
Survei
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I am an aspiring Hip Hop artist. Maybe I'll use this website as my artist page, maybe it will just be my blog. I have big dreams, goals and plans and a love for writing songs so keep your eyes out and maybe you'll see me and you'll remember that you saw my name somewhere before.
Peace.